I’m not sure where nine months of my life have gone. It seems like just yesterday Seth and I were saying our wedding vows, only to soon find out we were going to have a baby of our own. Nine short months have led up to these dreadfully slow two weeks of waiting until Benjamin’s arrival.
Waiting is not something I’m good at. My whole life I feel like I’ve had this major checklist of events that would occur, and I’d simply anticipate the day that they happened and I’d mentally check them off only to move on to the next big thing.
Recently I’ve found myself asking what kind of a life is that? A life constantly anticipating the future, rather than enjoying my current situations, is not a life I want. I’m reminded of this scripture from Matthew 6:31-34 which says, “So don’t worry about these things, saying, ‘What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?’ These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs. Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need. So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.”
As the countdown continues to Benjamin’s due date, I’m becoming more excited every day. However, this shouldn’t cause me to want his arrival day to come any sooner. The longer he’s in there, the healthier it is for him. He’s growing stronger and preparing for an even easier transition to the outside world. I’m also getting many, many foot-rubs that I’m not sure I’m going to get in the near future. Simply because we’re both going to be so exhausted from a newborn. So why rush it?
In the meantime, I can only continue to dive into the word of God. I should be preparing myself to be a mother who strives to love like Jesus and a wife who supports her husband who works hard for the three of us, rather than worry and wait in an anxious state for a little man who just isn’t ready to come out yet.
Until he makes his arrival, I will wait patiently rather than long for him to just be here already. God’s timing is perfect and He already has a very special day picked out just for Benjamin. I ask that you pray for my growing family as we go through this transition.
Note: I’m going to laugh really hard if I go into labor tomorrow after posting this.